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I've never done something like this before and maybe no one will read it. Maybe it won't matter. But, in a way, even in my wallflower facade, I hope someone does. Someone sees my secrets. 


I met with a friend today, who I realized a little while ago, we are heading in completely different directions. Not in the literal sense so much. But, in the sense that makes the most difference, the mental one. I just want make a difference here while I can. I'm a junior and a large part of the Orientation Department and I want to make that something big for all the Freshman coming here in the Fall. I want to make things better for other people. This friend of mine has no concept of that and for some strange reason I'm so glad I finally figured it out. Now, I don't mind leaving her behind and finding new friends who want to do good things too.


It's a relief to let her go. It's a relief to find really good people, who think and feel like me. I've always felt really alone, but finally maybe I'm not.


"Dark Blue, Dark Blue Have you ever been alone in a crowded room? Well, I'm here with you. I said the world could be burning dark blue." Jack's Mannequin "Dark Blue"


(P.S. That's one thing that you should know about me. I'm kind of obsessed with music, so every post will be concluded with some lyrics. Check 'em out. I have pretty good taste. I'll probably talk about that eventually.)